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I believe in things having a home. Or a safe place. There has to be this in order to safely venture out. You have to know that you can go out and come back. This is how I was describing my need for order. My obsession with rules and order, work now so you…
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IT’s almost Thanksgiving. Oy vey. So I’m supposed to be making a trip to Savannah. I was like, I’m looking at air B&B’s. He was looking in Bluffton because its convenient for him. I’, like nope I don’t want to have to rent a car. Then he jumps to me driving him to work…
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I should have written before 2 days ago. I got a friend request from P. I thought it was spam so I investigated it. I accepted it. Then he messaged me saying thanks for accepting the request, hope you’re well. I didn’t know we were not friends, I had just been on his page.…
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Okay so here we are, Wednesday I noticed lat night the addition of a bad habit: going to bed with computer on. There are some things I’m realizing, that I’ve kind of replaced alcohol with weed. I need to take an inventory of what I’m doing with that. It’s too much. SO in order…
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Wow man, so much time has passed since I last wrote. I’m been overwhelmed completely. A has been stressing be the fuck out with his shenanigans. There’s fuckery afoot with E. I’m reading about love addiction and avoidance. DEfinitely need to read more about that. Waking up this moring I feel less tapped out.…
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You need to journal about being stuck in planning/contemplation and being afraid of action. Do you think that dysfunction gets resolved by osmosis? without work? without discussion?
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Good morning Jennifer! You know that financial independence is the key to getting out of here. So you need to get a clear picture of what’s going on. Make getting clarity with your money your priority. So see what you’re working with.
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Here is what we AREN’T going to do. Worry about a man. Not gonna worry. What is real is what your thoughts can’t change. Forget your thoughts. A calendar for the year Time and date Or where that other annual planner was.
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I’m no longer entering into relationships where I feel the need to I’m not extending myself to anyone more than they extend themselves to me. It’s time for ME to level up. And I can only do that myself. Tomorrow morning, finish planning the year.
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KABBALLAH NOTES So I talked to B the other night. He is so full of shit. I have a number of things to reflect on with him, mostly my lessons in narcissism. Also I got on Bumble. Need to also discuss Malkuth study group and the honesty piece. Discernment and self-awareness. Awareness, and how…